disremember.
there comes a point where things fail
everything implodes
seek out what was shameful and wrong
you want it now more than anything
becomes pure like gold
what you thought was gold is sh*t now
hurts you. everything looks so cheap
everyone is brain-dead or else
they've lived too long
you've lived enough
if you keep going, you may end up like them
had enough life, filled yourself
they're gluttonous.
will be there forever
looking down on you
eating well, living well
expelling fumes in the air
they cough them up, whiz by and
honk at you because you're in their
f-ing way, except you're not
but you might be if you just
move a little
everything is blurry. close your eyes
took too much medication
too many pills to sleep
now it's a blur, and you can't hear anything
don't wake up anymore
nothing will wake you. It's why you took
the sleep aids. they're so good
make you numb to yourself
only sleep. not good sleep
forced and failed.